It feels as if I was teased. Showing a part of what I could have, if only I had someone to do it with. It sucks. It makes loneliness worse. I know I should just forget about it, but it’s so hard for me to forget things like that that I want. I hate it! Loathe it with a passion. I’m only sixteen, I know, I know. But no one knows how lonely I feel. Seeing people together at school, it makes my insides feel all torn and sad. I really don’t like feeling this way. I’ve always drowned myself in my pitiful sorrows, and I hate it. I just want to enjoy myself while I can.
But why can’t I do it with someone else?
sigh.
double sigh.
I feel so terrible. I feel as if all my feelings for Rockboy have vanished. But how could that have happened in almost a snap of my fingers? Talking on the phone with him wasn’t the same as it was before. I don’t get a warm feeling in the pit of my stomach like I used too. I just don’t know. What will I do with myself next week when I see him? This just sucks, ultimately.
But of course, I know this, my problems aren’t so bad compared to others. And I hate how I’m making such a big deal about it.
meh.
♥Norie
×Hates×
Violence. Drugs. Alcohol. Insecurity. Summer. Annoying people.