It’s funny when people I don’t know they just have that ‘popular’ look and I’m intimidated, but most of them don’t even know how to spell worth bullshit, compared to me that is. I don’t like bragging about most things, but I can brag about how I can spell. I’m pretty good at spelling things right. When I’m at school and someone’s writing something, and I see how they spell it wrong, and it makes me wonder if I’m the only one at school who knows how to spell properly. It seems like all these people can’t spell very well, and at my old school, everyone in my class knew how to spell. I don’t know, maybe it’s just me. But, oh well.
I believe I’ve realized why I’m beginning to be a little distant from Rockboy. I think it’s because I’m just not ready for something so strong as Rockboy’s feelings for me. He’s in love with me. Yes, it’s all I’ve wanted- a boy to fall in love with me. But why can’t I feel the same? I don’t want him to move up here for me, because that seems like the main reason why he’s moving. I’d hate to do that to someone. I’m just not ready… after all I’m only 16.
I went bowling with Kyle Saturday night. It was fun, I needed that night to cool off, forget all my worries and such. And I’m glad I realized that I find Kyle more as a friend than someone to consider dating. He’s like my older brother. And I beat his ass six times in a row at air hockey. Heck yes.
I got my progress report the other day- five A’s and three B’s. Mom was happy; Dad’s response was “that’s good” or something to that effect. I don’t like school. Too many people who are all the same. But that’s high school for you right? I wrote this yesterday, because I was just tired of seeing the SAME PEOPLE everywhere:
Everyone at school is starting to look the same. Like they're changing the way they look to look different, but really it's all the same. You boys wearing girl pants... that's not attractive... and it most likely isn't comfortable. Wearing band tees that you've probably only have heard 1 song from. Having your hair cuts all look the same and dyed black. You're not different; you're all the fucking same. Face it. Liking the same exact bands, having the same exact look. Jeez, have some variety?And what's up with all this 'kthx' bull shit. It's fine if you say it once in awhile, but after every sentence you say it, i'd like to strangle you. And you're all in your little groups of looking the same, acting the same. Jesus, if you want to be different be yourself and not these stupid little "scene" [is that the word I want to use?] kids. Be you- something different, since that seemed to be what they all wanted to be- different. And now they're all the same. I wonder if they realize that.
Hooray.
♥Norie
×Hates×
Violence. Drugs. Alcohol. Insecurity. Summer. Annoying people.