I just went to a memorial service for a boy named Barry Percell. He was only 14, a freshman, and decided to take his own life this last Sunday. I didn’t know him, but I had decided to go anyway, to support those who knew him, including Babs. I didn’t know what I was to expect when I went, but I definitely didn’t expect what happened. There were so many kids from school at the church, just so many kids. It’s hard to fathom that he could have done something like this, when he seemed to have so many friends and their support. He had a future ahead of him. If I would have known him, I know that he could have made a difference in my life as he has tonight. Just seeing all those people who loved him and miss him. He was a good, faithful Christian. He wasn’t afraid of his faith. I admire that. I just can’t believe someone… could do something like that. He had told his youth pastor that life was rough for him, but that he would make a change. I just can’t believe it.
Toward the end of the service, the youth pastor asked for those who wanted to be accepted my Christ, forgiven of their sins. I went up, as I have before at Beaverton Foursquare. I always end up being the same afterward. I want it to change. I want to be accepted. I want to be led down a right path. But I just don’t know. I never have anyone to talk to about these things.
On a happier note… Monday night was the night I saw Rockboy. The night. It was brilliant. I got to hold his hand. He told me I was beautiful, and that he loved me. He held me, and it was just… awesome. After these few months, I finally got to see him and touch him. The music was awesome too. I loved Coheed and Cambria and all the other bands. Unfortunately, after the night, Babs got grounded. =( Rockboy’s friends are awesome, as expected, because I’ve talked to them before. It was just a neat night. And it saddens me that it will probably be the first and last time I get to see him…
I still can’t construe my feelings for him. I just… don’t know right now.
♥Norie
×Hates×
Violence. Drugs. Alcohol. Insecurity. Summer. Annoying people.