Paul came over today. Without my mom knowing, of course. He was only here for about 40 minutes, and we kissed, and had a 'tickle fight'. If you call him tickling me a fight? He's the first boy to ever be in my room, or at my house. I like having his arms around me... and his lips on my neck, and teeth.
I have three C's. THREE. What has happened to me? Do you know how bad my mom will kill me if she finds that out? Which is why I'm not ever showing it to her. Which makes it worse, because if she wonders when we get the progress report... oops. What do I have the C's in? EASY CLASSES. Well, at least I have A's in all of my other classes, right?
It's hard to imagine, to get used to, that the guy who made fun of me... who made the statement "The ground shakes when you walk", is nice. He's actually nice. NICE. I can't believe I'm saying Matt Holt is nice. As Melissa said, people change.
I've changed. Either it's been gradual, or really fast. POW. I'm so confused right now, with the future. What do I want to do? I hate when my mom pressures me into talking about what college I want to go to. Today we had a Junior Focus meeting, and we got papers of schedules for college things, and all this crap about career stuff. I still need to do all this stuff for my CAM, but it's to hard, and I like procrastinating... I don't have to do anything. I just wish my mom didn't care that much.
I don't know.
♥Norie
×Hates×
Violence. Drugs. Alcohol. Insecurity. Summer. Annoying people.