It is cold, very cold. The weather is said to turn to snow… but all I see, well hear, is rain. I hope it snows tomorrow so there’s no school, that’d be joyous. Actually, my Spanish teacher told us about a snow dance to the Saint of rain and snow, Huitzilopochtl, so maybe before I go to bed tonight I should do that… see what happens. Ooh.
I remember times whenever I’d like someone, I’d be agonizing over how they would never like me, like most people do. But I think that having no one to like is worse. It’s lonelier because I can’t fantasize about a person falling in love with me; it’s much harder. Why must I be such a dreamer? It sucks. I am so lonely to the point where I have to start thinking about Rockboy and how much I miss him. But I don’t miss him. I just miss having someone to tell me how beautiful I ‘am’ and that they love me. I’m smart enough to know that, but it’s not like I do anything about them.
My friend Kayray is doing a video in her class on conformity and non-conformity. We have a lot of people at school who try to be non-conformist, but they just end up being the same. I laugh at those people. See, the only way to not conform is to just be you. Why is it so hard for people to learn that? It’s just so obvious, and everyone misses it, unless that’s just who they are, by conforming, than that’s fine with me. I’m a lover not a hater.
Today at school, on my way to meet friends at lunch, some random boy is walking toward me and asks me if I want to make out. Running through my mind: What the fuck is wrong with this guy? HELP ME! I was currently eating a Dorito when he asked, so I couldn’t really reply fast, but he was giving me this “come hither” look, and it was just disgusting kind of. Why are males dicks? They just think with theirs. Or don’t even think at all. Fucker.
Oh, why, oh why must I be so shy and quiet and care so much what people think about me? Someone smack me.
Now I have to go finish the body of my essay on legalizing gay marriages. Yay!
♥Norie
×Hates×
Violence. Drugs. Alcohol. Insecurity. Summer. Annoying people.