Today is my birthday. Wow. Sixteen. Big deal. I used to think it was. I’d finally be able to date, and drive, but now it doesn’t really matter to me anymore. I don’t think anything really matters to me right now. I’m not in anyway ambitious, and if I am, I don’t even know it. I don’t know what I want in life. I’m just kind of like… blah. It didn’t even feel like it was my birthday today. Maybe it will tomorrow.
I hope that more than 5 people will show, and I really, really hope that Con comes. I’d be the happiest. My friend called me today to wish me a happy birthday, which made me feel really special.
I’ve been thinking about sometime a couple months ago, when I had been going out with King, he mentioned that he’d put my birthday in his calendar thing on his cell phone, and I wondered if he’d call me or text me to wish me a happy birthday, at least. His phone might be off though. I don’ t know why I wonder if he thinks about me, because he probably never does. He probably just forgot about me. I’m not being sad, I’m just stating something. Because to be honest, I’m just in a blah mood right now, I don’t feel any real emotions. It’s just a birthday.
Today I had to do a speech in English. I totally bombed it, well I felt like I did. It had to be between 10-20 minutes, and it was only nine. I was so nervous, and I could feel my voice shaking, my face hot. I really don’t know why I was so nervous. I just don’t like talking in front of a large audience.
♥ Norie
×Hates×
Violence. Drugs. Alcohol. Insecurity. Summer. Annoying people.